Un Beso Del Infierno

I don’t think you understand me and I don’t think I understand you. I know I’m hurt and so angry but I let go. Your happy and I see that. Free to party, drink, and fuck who ever. But just know that I was always there to hold you down and I think I’m walking away. Everybody says its just a break your coming back to me, you have to. But I don’t want to believe I don’t want to get my hopes up. But I need to grow to. I need to find what I want out of life and how to move on. I think about you everyday and want to say I love you but I can’t. I know you won’t return it. I want somebody to sit you down and tell you you made a mistake but I know it won’t help. I mean they all think it was selfish and an asshole move to just pop it up out of no where. But I think you been holding it in for a while and tried to be happy but it wasn’t enough. I want to say I’m sorry I wasted three years of your time but I appreciate every moment that you spent making me happy. I’ll never forget you and I wish you happiness. I feel more alone then ever but if that’s the price I have to pay in order for you to be happy then its ok. I always thought we be together no matter what. I thought we could grow together help each other but I thought wrong. But if we can get back together I hope we stronger then ever. But I honestly don’t think you want to. You want the fastlane and your loving it. It is what is. I have to deal with it.